Why I Stopped Blaming My Life - Rooftop Walks to Financial Freedom

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I was sitting on the roof today, just talking to my phone, trying to figure out why I feel so stuck sometimes. I realized something huge: for a long time, I have been waiting for things to get "perfect" before I start living.

If you are reading this, maybe you feel the same. Maybe you feel insecure in your marriage, stressed about money, or guilty that you aren’t the "perfect" father.

I am writing this (actually, I am speaking this and letting AI type it!) to tell you that you are not alone. Here is what I learned today about turning my struggles into my strength.

1. The "Insecurity" Monster is Inside Me (Not Her)

I used to look at my partner and think she was the problem. I felt small because I wasn't earning enough money yet, or I felt judged. I would throw what I call a "tantrum"—getting angry or acting out just to protect my ego.

But I realized the truth: Blame is a trap.

When I blamed her, I was giving away my power. I was saying, "I can only be happy if she changes." The moment I admitted that the insecurity was coming from my own lack of self-worth, I felt free. Now, when I feel that anger rising, I hit the pause button. I ask myself: Am I mad at her, or am I just feeling weak right now?

2. Money Won't Fix You (I Know Because I had It)

I used to tell myself, "If I just had money, I would be happy."

But that is a lie. In the past, I actually earned around 15 Lakh rupees through AdSense (mostly with my brother's help). I had the money in my account. But guess what? I still felt empty. I felt like it wasn't mine.

I learned that money buys comfort, but it doesn’t buy confidence. If you feel empty now, you will feel empty with 3 Crore in the bank. The real happiness comes from the struggle—from knowing you built the website, you wrote the code, and you earned that first dollar yourself.

3. My "Lazy" Hack: Don't Write, Just Talk

I have a confession: I hate writing articles. When I sit down to type, I overthink every word. It feels fake.

So, I stopped trying to be a "writer." Now, I just go to the roof or a quiet room, hold my phone, and talk. I rant about my day, my lessons, and my business ideas. Then I use AI to turn that audio into text.

It’s messy, but it’s real. If you want to succeed online, stop trying to be a robot. People connect with humans. Your broken English, your raw emotions, and your real stories are your biggest assets.

4. The "Bike and the Small Door" Theory

Today, I took my brother's bike out. There was a small door I had to pass through to get it out. Suddenly, I felt fear.

I realized I wasn't scared of the door—I was scared of my past. I remembered old accidents, times I fell, or times I was scolded for messing up. But I took a breath, focused, and rode the bike through the door. Nothing happened. It was easy.

It also reminded me of learning English. Years ago, when i was learning that time i used to get scared to talk, they used to laughed at me. It was hard. But, now? I am speaking to you right now.

Everything is hard until it becomes easy.

5. Parenting is About "Showing," Not "Hiding"

I have two kids, and sometimes I feel guilty. I feel like I’m not giving them enough time because I’m so focused on fixing my financial situation. Sometimes, I snap at them because I'm stressed about money, not because they did anything wrong.

But I’ve realized that kids don't need a perfect dad who pretends everything is okay. They need a dad who shows up. If I am working hard to build a future for us, that is a lesson for them too.

I am learning to say: "I am not mad at you, I am just frustrated with work." And then, I get back to the grind.

My Next Step

I have a big goal: Financial freedom in 10 years. It sounds far away, but it starts with the work I do today.

So, if you are reading this, stop waiting for the perfect time.

• Take the bike through the small door.

• Record your voice even if it shakes.

• Forgive yourself for the past.

We are just getting started.